After my lunch with Amber I pass by a pharmacy and buy two pregnancy tests. I am really unsure about whether I want to take this test. What if I am pregnant? What will I do with this baby? I really do not want a child now. I don’t really want my baby to be born into a dysfunctional family, I mean it’s dad is a mafia lord and I haven’t gotten my ducks in a row I don’t think I am emotionally ready to look after this baby.

“Alex, we arrived” Chris says breaking my chain of thought.

“Thanks Chris” I say getting out of the car. I get into the house  and find mom and Athena preparing dinner. I shoot straight for my room without saying another word. I get to my room and take out the pregnancy tests and place them on one of my nightstands. I pace around my room thinking about whether or not I should take the pregnancy test. I suddenly get this horrible headache. I take some advil and I decide to sleep.

I wake up feeling sick and excessively tired as though I was running for 5 hours straight yesterday. I check the time on my alarm and find the pregnancy tests impatiently staring at me. Oh gosh I can’t believe I am about to do this. I take the tests to the bathroom and follow the instructions on the leaflet. After 3 solid minutes I check the results. 3 weeks pregnant. Both the tests say that I am 3 weeks pregnant. I colapse on my bed and dial Amber’s number.

“Hey Alex” Amber says cheerfully.

“Hey Amber, you were right” I say sullenly.

“I am right about a lot of things honey, you are going to have to specify” she says trying to cheer me up.

“I am pregnant. 3 weeks pregnant” I say about to burst into tears.

“Alex, what are you going to do?” she asks seriously.

“I have no idea, I have to go my mother is here” I say hanging up.

I quickly hide the pregnancy test in my drawers and open the door for my mom. I slowly climb into bed and clutch my stomach.  What am I going to do with you?

“Alexendra breakfast is ready” my mom says standing near my bed.

“I am fine thanks mom” I manage to mutter.

“What is wrong with you honey?” she asks slowly leaning down to meet my gaze. See my mother isn’t the best mother in the whole wide world and she and I don’t see eye to eye but she knows when something’s wrong with me. She is known to freak out when I so much as sneeze.

“I am not feeling well that’s all” I say slowly wishing that is the only thing that is going on.

“Are you sure?” she asks kissing my cheek.

“Yes, I am sure there’s nothing to worry about mom” I say slowly.

“Fine if you want something to eat just tell me ok?” she says tucking my hair behind my ear. I slowly nod my head. She immediately leaves after that. I call Cynthia to cancel all my meetings today since I am not going to work. I can’t face the world right now I just want to hide and think about what I am going to do about this pregnancy. After a few minutes of calling Cynthia to cancel my meeting I receive a call from Ashton. I decline the call and fall asleep.

Several hours later I am awakened by a tumult inside the apartment. I go out and find my sister screaming at Ashton. I quickly calm my sister down and get out with Ashton for a walk.

“Why didn’t you answer my calls, I was starting to go crazy” Ashton says irritated.

“I was sleeping” I say shortly.

“Sleeping? Why didn’t you come to work today?” he asks examining me.

“I am not feeling well” I say shortly.

“What are you not telling me Alex?” he asks stopping in front of me.

“I am still getting my head around it” I say slowly.

“Getting your head around what Alex?” he asks with a concerned look.

“I am…I am pregnant” I say looking him straight in the eyes.

“You are what? Are you sure? When did you find out? Why didn’t you tell me sooner?” he asks with a look I have never seen on his face before.

“Yes, I am 3 weeks pregnant I found out today” I say holding my stomach.

“You are keeping it right?” he says giving me a concerned look.

“I don’t know what I am going to do. I am not ready for this kind of responsibility” I say honestly.

“You are not going to be handling that responsibility alone” he says. I am not certain but I have a feeling he wants me to keep this baby.

“You aren’t the one experiencing the morning sickness, the fatigue, the pains and you are definitely not going to be the one putting your career on hold Ashton. I am not 28 I am 24 years old Ashton I want to build up my career” I say starting to feel dizzy.

“That’s just low Alex, you can’t just think about yourself here. You have two other people to think of. Alex are you ok?” he asks and catches me before I fall.

“Just feeling a little dizzy. You aren’t the one getting dizzy either” I say heading for the bench near where we were standing.

“Stop being selfish Alexendra” he says getting frustrated.

“Oh, so I am selfish, you won’t leave the mafia and you are saying I am being selfish? You are such a hypocrite Ashton Parker!” I say fuming with anger. After my sudden bout of rage. I demand to be taken back home in tears. Ashton then carries me on his back until we get back to my apartment without saying another word. He spends a couple of minutes outside and we finally part ways.