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Grabbing her arms he harshly pulled her closer. Amelia instantly held his biceps to keep a favourable distance between them.

“Answer me. Why didn’t you tell me this? Why.” He again questioned but Amelia’s tongue seemed to tie up. She parted her lips but nothing came out.

“Answer me fucking answer me. It’s killing me, Amelia. I beg you to answer me. Where is our child? Amelia please.” Amelia gulped seeing him begging her.

Gently removing his hands from her arms she with her trembling legs took a seat on the sofa behind her. Liam did nothing except stare at her.

“Yes, I was pregnant.” Liam stopped breathing for a second as soon as those words left her lips.

He took a step back in horror when she looked up only for her teary eyes to come in contact with his stunned ones.

“I came. I did come to tell you. But everything got messed up even before I could do so.” One tear escaped her eyes remembering the day. She wiped it chuckling out in sadness.

“I got to know about my pregnancy the day Rose accused Harry. I wanted to tell you but everything just got messed up and I got no time to share this matter with you.”

Liam was frozen in his place. He licked his lips staring at her as she continued her words.

“The matter wasn’t just of few words that ‘Liam I am pregnant’ no. It was more than that. When the doctor told me about my pregnancy she suggested an abortion. She said that because of my past accident my body is still too weak to give birth. But I still wanted to give birth to our child so I begged her for a solution.”

Liam slowly stumbled back and fell on the bed. His tongue got tied as no words were making out of his lips.

“You do remember I fell from stairs once when I was only 11. That incident was the reason why my body was still too weak. After my begging doctor told me that I need relax and peaceful environment. If I want to give birth to a healthy child and don’t want to lose my baby then I have to take good care of my health. No tension. No stress. Only peace and relaxation. She even forbid me from doing any house chores or other work as my body was too weak to carry a life in me.”

Her lips wobbled as she clutched the sofa material remembering that dreadful day. She let the tears stream down her eyes as she continued to remember the painful day of her life. The day she lost everything.

Flashback

The day Amelia came to Liam’s mansion when they both got divorced. That day she wanted to tell him about the child.

She wanted him to know that all this stress and tension can put their child in danger and she can’t afford it. She already had a terrible health error the night he called her nothing on call.

She wanted to give birth first to a healthy baby. She knew she has to be with her brother and she will be with him but she wanted Liam to lessen her worries so she could relax her mind a bit.

But everything went down when she witnessed him in the arms of another woman. And what left her more shattered was his no effort to stop her from divorcing or from leaving him.

He remained frozen on his spot but said nothing. No sorry. No apology. Nothing. That time she forgot about the purpose she came to him. She forgot about her pregnancy instead the only thing she could remember was his betrayal.

As soon as she exits the mansion. Somewhere in her heart, she wanted him to run after her. She wanted him to beg for her forgiveness. To cry for her. But nothing. He didn’t come. He didn’t even look back.

She walked in the street lifeless. She wanted to cry but no tears came out. All she felt was emptiness. She was beyond hurt to feel anything.

Suddenly a sharp pain hit her head along with her chest. She found hard to breathe. Using her trembling hands she held the wall of the side of the road and stood against it.

Her blurry gaze blinked multiple times so she could clear her view but nothing. The pain kept on increasing and all she could do was to hold herself from crying out.

A small yelp left from her lips feeling a sharp pain in her abdomen. And instantly she realized what was happening. Tears started streaming down her eyes rapidly.

“N-no.” She whispered to herself and tried hard to walk.

“Hey, are you alright?” She heard a faint voice of a man but all she remembered was failing to hold her body up and letting it fall.

When she opened her eyes again. She found herself on a bed in a hospital room. It took her proper minutes to remember what happened. Realization soon drowned in her as she placed her palm on her stomach.

The doctor entered the room and smiled sadly at Amelia. She shook her head letting the tears once again embrace her cheeks.

“M-My baby.” The doctor sighed heavily.

“I am sorry Ms Kale. I told you stress and tension can cause miscarriage and because of excessive tension your body couldn’t take the stress and because of weakness, you miscarried. I am sorry.”

Amelia shook her head bursting out in heavy tears. She wailed out making the doctor soothingly held her shoulder.

At the time she needed someone the most but all she got was no one at her comfort. She spent all day alone in her misery. Even Harry didn’t know about her miscarriage because at that time he was in jail and Amelia was trying for bail.

Flashback End.

“I wanted to tell you. I blamed you in the start after losing our child. I wanted to hurt you so badly. Trust me I cried every night cursing you and your sister. But with time I understood that it was no one’s fault. Seeing you and Rose getting worst than what I cursed for you to have. I realized that I don’t have to hurt you more. The guilt and regret were enough to punish you.”

Till now Liam was crying too. He was sitting on the bed with his face soaked with his tears. He was hearing her every word and all he could feel was pain and pain.

“I thought many times of telling you but I just didn’t know how to. It was hard. Too hard to tell you that you were the reason why I miscarried. Your betrayal was the reason. But to be honest, the doctor already said that even a bit of tension can cause miscarriage. In the end, I accepted it as our fate and tried to hide it.”

“I didn’t want to add more pain and guilt to what you were already feeling. You were already dying every second. I wasn’t just that heartless to add more to your misery. Even though I wanted to but I didn’t. I just couldn’t.”

Liam closed his eyes as a loud sob left from his throat. His hands went to his head. Amelia flinched in shock when Liam screamed out grabbing his hair harshly.

He couldn’t imagine that he was the reason for his ex-wife miscarrying their child. Only. If only he didn’t make that mistake. Then things might have no different. Why didn’t he try to stop her? To explain that he didn’t cheat knowingly. That he would never look at another woman when he was married to her.

It was a mistake a huge mistake that he didn’t intend to do.

The night when Amelia said that she wouldn’t be able to accept him and leave her brother for him. He was too sad and hurt by her words.

His mind stopped thinking about the possibilities that why she wasn’t accepting him and not leaving her brother. He was just thinking about her preferring her brother over him. And it wrecked his senses.

Getting heavily drunk the only thing he remembers that night was meeting a woman and crying in front of her and how much he misses his wife. And after some time he started seeing Amelia in her.

The woman didn’t even try to explain and let him think of her as Amelia. They both slept together and in the morning when he woke up he remembered calling Amelia.

The woman told him that he was too sad so she helped him which burnt him and he instantly asked her to get out and that time when he left the room he witnessed Amelia standing there.

The groans and moans Amelia heard were of him making when he woke up because of the rough headache. And the girl moaned when he forcefully woke her up and asked her to leave.

Yes, he didn’t cheat intentionally but did he try to explain. Did he try to tell her? To stop himself from further ruining them. No, he didn’t. His rage and blindness didn’t let him.

He didn’t for once try to mend their relationship properly. He never explained the night. Instead after the divorce, he slept with his secretary twice. And the second time Amelia again caught him in his office.

Even then he made no effort to accept his guilt instead he went on having an affair. But karma is indeed a bitch. He let his rage overshadow his guilt. And in a same way his mistakes overshadow the love Amelia had for him.

He lost her. And he’s responsible for this. He made a mistake but instead of redeeming it, he went further on doing nothing but hurting and destroying her.

And the time he regretted. It was already too late to mend things. If only he had thought with his senses instead of his rage then things might have been so different.

Amelia in shock went to Liam when he cried loudly pulling his hair harshly.

“Liam.” She tried approaching him but he shook his head.

“No don’t come near me. I don’t deserve your comfort. I don’t. What have I done? My child. My innocent child. I killed my baby. Because of me, you have gone through so much. Because of me.”

He cried out falling off the bed and letting his body met the floor. He fell on his knees in front of Amelia who stared at him with a pitiful gaze. Her tears were streaming down as well as once she was also in this position.

“IT WAS ALL MY FAULT. MY FAULT. MY CHILD. UGHH.” He screamed slapping his cheeks this time.

Not able to control Amelia held his wrists and pulled him in her embrace. He tried breaking away but finally giving up he cried on her shoulder.

She wanted to tell him to not blame himself. To calm down. But she said nothing. There was nothing She could say. Because once she was also in this position. She used to cry every night and only the doctor was there at her comfort.

The doctor used to tell her to calm down. To try to relax hut nothing worked ever. That’s why she decided to just let him cry his heart out.

Because she knew no words can calm the guilt he had grown in him.