Amelia Pov

I couldn’t understand what was happening. Just a few minutes ago everything was perfect but within a second, I felt like my world has crushed under a heavy mountain.

I slowly opened my teary eyes only for my brother to rush towards me with a worried face. Tears started streaming down my eyes again. Xander. My Xander.

“Oh my god, Amy stop crying nothing happened to your husband. He’s perfect. Stop crying.” My head snapped towards him hearing his words. Instantly sitting up on the bed I let out a small groan. God my head. It’s hurting so bad.

“Where is he,” I whispered as my throat hurts a lot. He sighed before helping me sit on the bed properly but I pushed his hands away.

“Leave me I want to go to him,” I said clearing my throat. He sighed once again at my stubborn behaviour. Finally nodding his head he helped me up.

“Nothing’s happened to him, Amelia. You scared me more than he did.” He mumbled but I was too focused on seeing my husband.

I couldn’t pin a point of why am I feeling so lost. Even though I knew the reason. When I heard Xander’s pained groan and a crash on the phone I felt like I had lost the reason to live. My heart throbbed in so much pain.

I couldn’t imagine living without him anymore. He had become a part of my life. Part of my body. And my heart. I was foolish so stupid.

All this time to push this feeling away. The fear of being in love and getting betrayed again. I refused all the feelings and emotions I had grown up in my heart for him.

But today. When I realised the possibility of losing him. I understood. I understood that no effort of mine had succeeded in ignoring my feelings.

I love him. I do.

But the fear of losing someone that I loved forced me to think that I don’t love him. That my heart doesn’t beat for him.

I loved Liam. I did. But who said you can’t fall in love again. I did love Liam a lot. But that love fades away when I witnessed him being nothing but a monster. He ruined us and somehow I realised that indeed love is not always enough to mend things.

I loved him the time he ruined us. I thought I hate him when I lost our child. But no I didn’t hate him but I didn’t love him as well. That love died with our baby.

The Liam I knew wasn’t a heartless beast that I faced in those 9 months. He changed and that be for the worst. There are a lot of things I don’t blame him for doing at that time but there are also a lot of things he had done that I can’t forgive him for.

When I met Xander I still used to think that I have feelings for Liam and that wasn’t wrong but after becoming close with Xander I understood that somewhere in my heart he had started making his place.

I had given him my heart before he did I know. I realised the love that I had for him when I chose him over Liam that night. The first night I let him have me. The most beautiful night of my life.

But I refused to accept it. I was afraid of being heartbroken knowing very well that he was still in love with his late wife. And also the fear of being in love and then left with nothing.

Liam’s betrayal had torn my heart into pieces. The pain I felt during miscarriage was terrifying. I felt like my soul was leaving my body that day. The pain was extremely horrifying. And somewhere in my dreams I still see myself in that painful trauma.

I was afraid to feel that pain again so I refused. I kept on refusing till the day Xander confessed his love. Every time I watch him after that day I had a huge urge to confess my love for him. But again the fear won against my heart.

I kept on denying it every day till this day. The moment I heard about his accident. The moment I realised that I might lose him. I felt something. Something in my heart.

Regret. I regretted not confessing my love. I regretted not accepting my feelings. I regretted not telling him. I regretted not showing him how much I love him as well.

Finally reaching the room I sighed out in relief as more tears escaped my eyes watching my husband sitting on the bed with his hand on his head. A heavy bandage was wrapped around his head and also arm.

With my trembling legs, I walked fast towards him. His eyes met mine and in a second worry appeared in them.

“Darling what happ—” I didn’t let him continue and threw myself on him. He wrapped his arm around me instantly. I could hear him groan a bit but I was too much lost to leave him.

“I-I was s-so scared,” I whispered tightening my grip on him. I heard him sigh before pulling me deeper into his embrace.

“Baby I am fine. It was just a minor accident. Nothing happened. Amelia Stop crying. God.” I didn’t stop crying and kept on sniffling as he forcefully pulled my face away from his neck, palming my cheeks.

I burst out in heavy tears letting out loud sobs. He chuckled kissing my forehead. “My cry baby. Stop ok. I am perfect.” I shook my head again throwing myself in his arms.

He had no idea how scared I was. I couldn’t breathe properly fearing to lose him. I buried my face in his neck and cried harder.

“Amy what’s wrong with you sis. Please calm down.” I heard my brother’s voice which was full of worry but I shook my head. I kept on tightening my grip on him. I can’t lose him. I had lost enough. I can’t lose more now.

Author Pov

“Please don’t leave me.” Xander’s heart melted away hearing her pained whisper. He could see how much afraid she was. He felt happy but worried for her at the same time.

She was looking too pale and kind of sick too. Instead of pulling away he wrapped his injured arm around her waist and other under her knees pulling her on his laps.

The nurse looked at him ready to protest but he shook his head with cold eyes which covered her back. She wanted to stop him from putting pressure on his arm and head but Xander was too focused on his weeping wife.

“Xander your arm.” Harry tried protesting but Xander shook his head at him as well. He carefully moved his injured arm away and using the other one he pulled her head against his chest.

“Shh baby I am fine. Perfect. I am not leaving you. Not now not ever. Stop crying.” The nurse almost gasped out watching the same man who almost made her run for hills with his gaze becoming so soft in a second.

The nurse checked Xander and couldn’t help but chuckle as Amelia was still in his arms on his laps. While Harry rolled his eyes leaving them both in the room. He was tired too. All night he stayed with his sister and brother in law without having a wink of sleep.

Soon nurse left the couple and Harry also took a seat on one of the chairs outside of the room yawning.

“How this happened.” Her meek whisper reached his ear making him kiss her head.

“A drunken man suddenly came in front of my car. Thank goodness the speed of my car was really slow but because of the wet surface when I turned my car the tires slipped and my car got hit by a tree. But I was lucky that the damage wasn’t much. I did lose consciousness for few minutes and my phone also got destroyed that’s why the call got cut. My arm and head got affected by the accident but the damage was minor. Thank goodness no big damage happened. That man is safe too.”

Xander completed his words with a heavy sigh thankful that he was able to save himself and that man. Even though the fault was full of that man but still he was happy he didn’t kill anyone.

Amelia also sighed snuggling in his embrace. She couldn’t feel more grateful than what she was feeling right now. The fear started lessening finally feeling him near her.

Xander was confused as well as overwhelmed. He never thought that thought of him being hurt can affect her this much. But he was still happy seeing her clinging on him like a koala.

They both didn’t say anything for God knows how long. He stayed sitting on the bed caressing her head while she stayed attached to him as her life depends on him.

Slowly she pulled away from him making him smile at her. But soon his smile turned confused one when he witnessed unexpected emotions in her eyes. Her gaze was weirdly different. Too different.

Grabbing his face in her tiny palms she placed her plump lips against his taking him for a surprise. He almost flinched at her sudden act but nonetheless reciprocated her action.

Tightening his grip on her waist he kissed her softly yet passionately. They both got submerged in the moment of ecstasy.

Her lips got pressed against his further as he pulled her completely against his chest. Amelia wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled his head forward.

They both kissed hungrily. The soft kiss soon turned into a ferocious desperate one. Squeezing her waist he earned a throaty moan from her making her open her mouth. He successfully slipped his tongue in her mouth and she did the same.

Sucking on her lower lip he made her moan loudly before entangling his fingers in her messy bun. He pulled her hair gently making her gasp out. She arched her back pressing her swells against his chest.

Her breathing accelerated when he broke the kiss and planted a soft kiss on her jaw. His fingers tugged in her hair making her moan as she threw her head back.

His kisses didn’t stop and went to her beautiful neck. The top she was wearing revealed her collarbone completely. He sucked on her skin making her clutch his messed up shirt.

“X-Xander stop.” They both were so much engrossed at the moment that they didn’t even notice the place. The time. The situation. All they thought was about their desires till Amelia’s senses snapped back in the reality.

Xander didn’t stop and her whisper fell on deaf ears. His kisses became violent as he started leaving hard kisses all over her neck making her moan out.

But she had to control. Placing her palms on his shoulders she gave him a light tug. “Xander stop.” He pulled her head up making eye contact with her.

His eyes were full of Lust and love for her. While hers showed the same emotions. She pulled him closer pecking his lips. Xander tried turning it into a deep kiss but she stopped him.

“We are in hospital babe. Stop. And you’re injured too.” Xander’s eyes widened a bit coming back to reality. Shit, he almost lost himself. His eyes moved and he cursed watching a camera in the room.

He instantly grabbed the coat that was placed beside him and wrapped it around her making her chuckle. He and his overprotective actions.

He pulled her deep in his embrace before cursing again for not being careful.  While Amelia only chuckled at his actions. And only one thing her heart yelled.

God. I love him so much.